BLURDAZE

Unable to forgive. i suck a lot. today, i started off well, but however, i end it badly: as worse as it can be.

Good thing of the day: 20/20 for MathCad test, Other than that, none.
Perhaps i could be happy that i understand what Dr. Sim taught today.

Bad thingS of the day: Late for sch, Forgot to brg my thumbdrive, Lost my keys, Spend too much cash, Forgot to get the tickets from KK, can't pass my Xtreme Challenge for DJmax. i only need a few more to become GrandMaster. but i can't fucking do it. I suck, i suck, i suck. I seriously lose my confidence already. Went on to MHP2G. used to be able to take on 2 G rank Garuga on a map. now? Can't do it. And i'm getting scolded by my mum like a piece of ****. whatever you want to put in that 4-letter space is up to you. i seriously have no mood to care now.

Sometimes i wonder why things aren't going well smoothly for me.

I'm down and out.

Who will be really there for me. I don't know.

Sometimes i'm not only down on luck. I'm totally knocked down hard. By my progress. Studies. Games. Drums. Sometimes i think i take them far too seriously. I catch a game fast, but i will never improve faster than anyone. Look at my CS. i can never headshot despite i aimed. Why? cos i slow. slow. slow. I don't feel like talking already.

Fuck. That hurts.

I seriously suck, even physically too. Headache and dizziness haunts me today. Hands din

Damned. That hurts too.

Someone, tell me what's lackin' in me. I'm really down and out.

Looks like i'm gonna get a new lock too. fuck.

I Wanna Run Away.

Got this frm an email.

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones will all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying.

Is that refering to me? i don't know. was asked to forward this. well. forwarding soon. i don't wanna have bad luck.

What have I become? What have I done? Something's getting in the way. Desperate I will call.